Life and Love

Blog 12 of 365
1/22/2011

10. Write a letter to your boyfriend.

Dear Daniel,
I love you.
The End.
jk lol

Dear Daniel,
Here comes more of me spilling my guts to you of things you never knew about but don’t let your head get too big. You are, by far, the best boyfriend I’ve had. You are one who actually cared about me and my well being. One who actually loved me the way I love you. For the longest time, I’ve wanted to find someone who could treat me that way I treat them and I’m glad that I finally found that “someone” in you. Last year, I was simply this foolish girl who had a list of what she did or didn’t like/want in a boyfriend. You came along and showed me that none of it matters. I was getting to be an independent girl who thought I could handle everything on my own but when shit came crashing and I had no one else to turn to, you were right there. From day one, you were a part of a support system that only had me and myself. I told you near everything about me and my past and my present. After everything, you still took me as I am and treated me no different. Out of everything, I appreciate that the most. The fact that you accepted me and my past and took me as I am. Even knowing I had mounds of baggage, you still stood by my side and helped me handle the obstacles as they come. You never gave up on me even during the times where I wanted to give up on everything. You continued to pursue me even when I didn’t want you to and kept telling you I wasn’t ready. You have no patience but for some reason, you waited for me. Maybe you saw I was worth it, I don’t know haha. I fell for you way faster than I thought I would. I wanted to deny that I had feelings for you because I didn’t know if they were real. I was caught between if I really did like you or if you were a safety net.

But I knew that I was really afraid of having another heartbreak. I was over protective of my poor little traumatized heart. I’ve had boys tell me shit like how they’d never break my heart and how they’ll never hurt me but I never believed them. With you, it was different. When you said those things, I believed it and my heart did too. Not once did I doubt those words coming out from your mouth.

Okay, so then we finally gave this relationship a chance and I fell in love. I spent so long questioning if it was love. I knew it was from everything you’ve done for me but I wanted to deny it because I didn’t want to take this big of a risk. I was scared of getting hurt and disappointed in the end. Most of all, I wanted to plan out my moves so it doesn’t end like all the other relationships. I guess I just didn’t want to jinx it. I tried doing everything different compared to the old relationships because I didn’t want it to end the same. Our relationship is so unique. We can cuss at each other, yell at each other, etc etc but still know that we love each other. We’re comfortable to the point where people wouldn’t believe we’re only 4 months into this. We have a bond that most couples would take years to build. And I enjoy every moment of it.

From the time we met up to now, you have shown me a lot, physically, emotionally, psychologically and every other way possible. You showed me that it is possible to have someone that will love me for me and love  me the same way I’d love them. You showed me that just because something goes wrong, it’s not the end of the world. Because of you, I now know the true meaning of love. Through everything, you held my hand and walked with me into uncharted territory that I didn’t want to venture in - falling in love. With you, there’s never ending surprises. I never know what I’m doing to learn next. Even though you’re younger than me, I feel that you’re older than me..sometimes.

With this, I want to thank you for all that you have taught me. I enjoy every moment we spend together. Though I get on your nerves and my time management sucks, thank you for being patient with me. Thank you for being my support system. I can’t thank you enough, babe. I love you for who you are just like how you love me for who I am<3